I grew up with Blink 182

Babbling to the future

Hola.

Have you ever thought that one day you will have your own house to live in, own career to pay the bills, own family to raise, own responsibilities to take care. See, these things kind of scare the hell out of me to grow up. I mean, being in the early 20's make you realise, damn, I am going to live like real adults pretty much in 5 years time. Well, 5 years are not going to be that long. So yeah, it keeps me thinking of the future so much. How am I going to survive all that ? What job will I be qualified in ? Will I ever be good in the things I do ? See, I keep worrying so much. But to be frank, none of the above will worry me that much now as this is a part of life. It will eventually has it flows and somehow I will manage to go through everything. It just that, it is kind of scary. Getting married is one thing. Of course everyone is feeling excited about getting married. Well, I am more of worrying than being excited.

Sure, getting married with the one you loved is a happy ever after fantasy. People just have in mind that it will go oh so lovey dovey every single time. Bila cakap pasal kahwin laju je, kalau boleh tang tu jugak nak kahwin. But have you think of the responsibilities that comes with it ? Everything has it own conflicts. Especially money. And you need to be hardworking in everything. Your work, your home. Home is another story, kalau pandai nak kahwin, kenalah pandai kemas rumah. Laa ni pun duk tunggang langgang sini sana baju panties huru hara ada hati nak kahwin. That is one thing. I am just saying though. This is my perception of getting married. I am just devastated to see some of the people I know just thinking about getting married the whole time. Yes you love your partner eternally but please be realistic. Kalau hangpa dok kawen skang, hangpa nak makan apa ? Ni laa ni dua dua dok blajaq lagik. Blajaq baguih baguih dulu. Kawen satgi crita. Kan baguih lagu tu.

I dont have any specific number on when I will get married. Is just that I will be making sure that I have enough savings for myself, my own car, and my own house (well depends though) before even get married with the one I desire to live my whole life with. I've seen what money can do in a marriage. It can be pretty, it can be dirty. I do not come from a wealthy family so its better I have my own possessions first before anything else.

But if you are that ready to get married, sure why not. I am not offending anyone. It just that you have to think further. Think about where will your life brings you. Lainlah kalau parents hangpa kaya raya boleh support menantu dan anak. Itu rezeki depa lah :) In conclusion, marriage is the climax thing that will happen in your life. Plan it well :)

Enough of adulthood and future, coming back to reality I have 3 papers going on in this month. Hope I can do it really well. InsyaAllah !

Till then, chiao !

Baby zebra

Dear you, please get well soon. When I received the text message saying that you are having food poisoning, boy I know how it feels. It is plain annoying and irritating. You will wanting to go and vomit like every 5 minutes. I really know how bad it feels. I just hope that you are fine as I am not around. Its been a long time since the last meeting and I am so wanting to be by your side now. Just listen to your random things and feel so fine. I cant bare to see you get ill. Seriously, I am so worried now although you are pretty much getting better. Take care my dear. I hope my prayers will always make you feel better.

I am in love !

Haha the title seems over rated but yes, I am in love. With this ukulele ! See how I hold this baby in this picture. So much love ! Pretty candid but you can tell how happy I am. Well all in all, it is not even mine in the first place lol. Umar lend it to me. I have it since a couple of days ago and definitely it was love at first sight. I know I know everything is pretty exaggerated, I am just to over whelmed with this petite 4-strings guitar.

For a record, I'll stay in Lendu for the longest time so far ! 2 weeks already, see exaggerate much kan lol. I'll be staying for a whole month later on. You see, I am so in the PBSM club which is Persatuan Balik Setiap Minggu. Home is where I want to be most. Been missing mi familia, friends and boyfriend of course ! But so much has to be done.. so I just stay here instead. I know Bangi friends miss me so much, kan kan kan. Hehe :3

Ok, continue with my ukulele obsession for awhile. I just wanted to say how I adore much of this cute little thing. I never stand a chance to play or even hold a uke before. Noob much. Hehe. Whatever it is I am beyond happy because the chords is much simpler than playing a real guitar. Too cute to handle this baby. Later on, I managed to play some songs. And still trying my best to sharpen my chords progression. This is so exciting ! (Cakap macam takde assignment kan nak buat)

So yeah, behold, my current obsession. Hew hew hew. Might buy one for me later.

And the best part is, serenaded  le boyfriend on the phone right after I managed to learn the very most basic first song, Im Yours by Jason Mraz. I enjoyed the late phone call. You, me, singing. How delightful :)

That is for now. Reality awaits me. Till then, chiao !